The new you, the spiritually conscious, spiritually grounded you, fumbles around trying to figure out what works now, not aware of the tendency to fall back on the power or the so called power of the old self life. You may believe strongly, want deeply to change and for your new found identity to emerge out of the cocoon of confinement you have existed in for so long. One step forward, two steps back or so it seems. The new you, the restored you, not quite sure if this new life will work, nagging and challenging as self doubt and lame excuses surface. The guilt of not praying, not reading the word, to meditate and to live fully in this new and exciting world begins to tarnish the experience and you start to wonder if it was all a fantasy, a figment of your imagination.